We spend too much time in our heads

40) At least I know that I sometimes do

So much of writing to me at least, is getting stuff out of my head and on paper. Lately, I haven’t been writing, partially because;

1. I have been too busy to be in my head

2. I’m deliberately being more connected to what I need to accomplish in other ventures in life. 

Writing has often been a form of therapy for me. Yet, I realize - when I need a break from therapy, sometimes the writing slows down, or just plain stops.  This is neither good nor bad. But, it has been a convenient excuse to not write.  That or I have been in my head about writing (or not writing for that matter). 

I like to write and provide value to people for what I’m saying. In this respect, I have very much gotten into my own head. As, I have been questioning the value of my writing. Hence, here I go again with hitting that plateau as a writer. 

My commitment to writing

 In fairness, the person I referenced specializes as a fiction writer, so it’s possible what she said didn’t apply to me. Well, obviously that’s kind of bull-sh*t. Of course it applied to me, at least at the time it did. Otherwise, I never would have created an article out of it. 

I do have a lot of cool and creative ideas for this blog, which I haven’t implemented. Sometimes I realize certain conversations fall out of existence. I need to remind myself to keep keeping on. Even if I’m not as prepared when showing up as I would like to be. 

I’m excited for what the future has in store for me (this is relevant to me as a writer and for my life in all areas). I also need to remain present in the moment. It’s important to me that this blog provides value for others. I think I’m frustrated because I haven’t been able to fully measure it or quantify it. I have been pleasantly surprised by some of the things I have discovered in writing here. But, I also have been left somewhat frustrated.  Even though I’m writing a post right here! 

I still feel as if I have needed to take a step back. And that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. The last thing I need to be on here is redundant. At least  that’s not my goal for myself. 

Therefore, I’m going to leave this one open-ended. For now the words I’m trying to convey are not fully present. But, I want to continue to keep presenting a conversation I have started on here months ago. What that conversation is, that’s open to interpretation. I’m discovering that for myself too.

Peace & Love,

-JPJ